Thursday, January 05, 2012

today

today is a weird day...will be a weird day i should say.  i am working in our grand rapids office to avoid a lot of drive time during the work day.  i am going with kim to one of her counseling appointments.  maybe this is the first of many yet to come or maybe this is the one and only.

i do not know what to think, what to say, how to feel, whether i should be skeptical or excited.

and another weird aspect is that with every day that passes, this feels more normal.  i do not want divorce, but i do not want kim to come back in the way that she is either.  i want her to desire to pursue God.  perhaps that is part of the beauty of it...because really the only way she is going to come back is if she does begin to pursue God, his love, his healing...

ill be back later today

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