Tuesday, May 29, 2012

more of the same


May 25th
                7a           Saw ring on kim’s finger
                9a           sheriff sale of house
                10a         coworker confirmed ring was engagement ring

May 26th
                All day   noah’s first birthday without us as a family
    5p          got packet from lawyer with kim’s latest motions which include allegations that the house             has not sold because I have kept it a complete disaster as well as allegations that I have not paid certain bills that are my responsibility and as a result destroying her credit.

May 28th
     All day   memorial day, one of the days we always spent with kim’s family.  Also the 1 year date of when kim wrote ira many things, including that she never really loved me.  Supposedly, this was the start of their relationship, but I no longer buy this.

It was a hard weekend to make it through, but I did, mostly. 

It is easy to just force a smile and push through, but that gets tiring.

There are more hard days to come in the next few months, days that will be made through just as these were.

There are many more good days to come though as well.  There will be days of renewal, joy, fullness, and celebration.  I look forward to those days.  I will welcome them will arms wide open.


1 comment:

Steph said...

Those "firsts" when your life changes, especially when you are not wanting the change, are by far the hardest. I know those words bring little comfort, but you did make it through a huge milestone weekend!

The other "firsts" will be tough, but generally not as tough as this past weekend.

You will make it through the rest of these "firsts" and someday soon, you will celebrate a whole different set of firsts with whomever God has intended for you.

And believe it or not (probably not at this point) there will come a day when you will be THANKFUL that Kim did what she did, as hard is it may seem to believe now, it will happen.