i have started to write too many times

i have started to write a post so many times this summer but have not  been able to finish it.  or if i had finished it, allow myself to post it.

here is why:  kim is single again.  and i am overjoyed.

part of me can't post because i dont want to say anything that will give a bad impression of her.  part of me can't post because i feel shameful for being overjoyed when i know that she is hurting.

i really see each interaction as an opportunity for us to begin to build a new relationship.

there is so much more going on inside my head and my heart,  pieces that i cannot write at the moment.

one thing is for certain though, no matter what level our relationship reaches, i need to seek my value and worth from my Creator God, not his beautiful creation.

simply live

there is so much that is rolling around in my mind today.

work, soccer, chores, love, rest, strategy, overcoming, conquering, old friends, jealousy, protection...the list goes on and on. (and on)

the constant thoughts are choking out the time to dream and to relish in the victory of where i have been.

and in the constant thoughts i am reminder to care for myself.  i am reminded to just simply live.

now i just have to figure out what that looks like ;)