run home

i have been running.  i am preparing for my first 5k.  it is not until june 2nd, but once i feel ready, i may try to find one before then...but the run for wings on june 2 is on the calendar and most of my calvary life group is in on it as well.  i like to run outside much, much more than a treadmill, and even if i have to go at 11p or later i try to get out.  i have added some hills because NM is pretty flat...i even hit some trails at the state park last week (that was much tougher than i thought it would be).

i am doing this 5k to show myself i can be disciplined enough to do this, that i have always had the ability inside me.  these times when i am out have been great emotional releases.  perhaps more importantly though, they have also been times when i have met with God.  sometimes it has been a prayer (both quiet and loud) other times through me being silent and listen, but it is often through the music in my ears.

a few weeks ago, i stumbled across a steven curtis chapman song called run home.  this song was only available as a bonus track when you prebought the this moment album.  lyrics are not found anywhere, no youtube copies, it is not even listed on stevencurtischapman.com as his song.

now i am not saying God had this song made just for me, but i do believe he orchestrated this song getting into my hands at first as a prebuy bonus on 1-1-08 and again as i was on a run a few weeks back.

so much of this will be lost by just writing the words here, because the complete song is pretty great, but i want to share them.

So long you journeyed
Hiding your face from the wind
Wondering if your broken heart
Will ever hope again
I know it seems like all your dreams
Have been buried somewhere on the way
I can hear a new beginning calling your name

 Run wild, run free
Like a river on its way to the sea
Show your heart, show your face
Let the fire inside you blaze
Run brave, run strong
Throw your head back and sing out your song
Run wild, run free, run home

 The waiting is over
Your moment has arrived
The wind is calling out to you
You were born to live this life
So gather up the memories of all the hope you’ve lost on the way
And lift your eyes, the sun is rising
On a new day

 Run wild, run free
Like a river on its way to the sea
Show your heart, show your face
Let the fire inside you blaze
Run brave, run strong
Throw your head back and sing out your song
Run wild, run free, run home Run home

 Go on and join the dance
And take the chance and let your heart dare to believe again

 Run wild, run free
Like a river on its way to the sea
Show your heart, show your face
Let the fire inside you blaze
Run brave, run strong
Throw your head back and sing out your song
Run wild, run free, run home Run home

 Run wild, run free, run home

 for me, today, this song is an invitation from my Creator.  i sometimes picture him calling these words out to me.  rob, come home, come quickly, run home rob.  i have created you for a purpose, for this moment, with an imaginative mind and endless possibilities.  be who i created you to be. run with perseverance.  run home

i am finding that having a target, a finish line, makes the running easier.  i dont know where this path will lead me through, but i know the destination is home.

i have been running...running home.